my failed attempt at life

Yep, I officially fail at life. All of my applications that i had put out across the country i am making an assumption that they dont want me..its a fairly safe assumption since it has been 2 months since i have applied for a job. my last semester as a grad student went down in flames.. to make matters worse i spent 15 hours on a final exam only to score a 56 out of 200...how is that possible..i do not know. i swear i had at least one of the 8 problems worked out correctly but who knows..i swear that the professor just threw darts on a board and has decided to have a vendetta against me. he proceeded to tell me he was also taking me off payroll so i dont even have a paycheck anymore. living of a loan check and the money i had saved up from last year is all i have now. next to zero job opportunities in site has got my outlook on life pretty bleak now. darkness is all around. i did contact my old boss basically begging to know what that company was going to do and if they had vacancies. what he could tell me was good, however, there is no way of knowing when they will be able to hire again..the economy has the whole country in a panic. also had a 30 min phone interview that sounded promising but im not going to bet the farm on it. i am quitting kansas state for good. it probably was the dumbest choice i have ever made in my entire life...well second dumbest ok maybe 4th but i refuse to tell any what mistakes 1-3 were. i hate every part of me that decided to turn down that job. i made roughly 8 friends here thats it..and the amount of friends i lost and shear quality that i did lose is just terrible. i lost my best friend..my one and only best friend. i cant get a job, i keep wrecking everything. its just terrible..my life officially is a failure..top all that off with me killing a second motherboard for being an idiot..my third one comes in tomorrow..lets see if i kill it as well.