Falling Fast: Poem by Tom

falling so fast
not sure how long it will last
wanting to hide
from all of the world that lied
stolen my soul
might as well go live in a hole
one day late
simply cost me my only mate
falling oh so fast
never thought it would last
will it ever end?
or will i have to mend?
the end is near
it has become oh so clear
fight the fight
try not to lose the sight
can only fall
if you cant get on the ball
and save yourself
from yourself

The day that never comes: Poem by Tom

the day that never comes
is the day i always want
must we always fight
for the days to be bright
death and gloom lurk about
it is over i dont not doubt
wanting someone to care
just for the time to share
but the succubus comes to
destroy and plunder you
darkness and despair has
taken over even as
the light still shines
faintly but still it shines.
when the light goes out
where will you be?
maybe you will be in rout
to see him who loves you
where will you be?
maybe saying love you too
i will await that day
where will you be?
maybe it comes before May
the sun will never shine again
i will never see the light again
i will never love again
i will never feel again
i will never see your face again
'cause the sun never shines again
i wish this was a dream
but it is reality it seems
a part of my soul has died
if only you had not lied
so we could have tried
nothing left in this world
all because of some girl
life has become unfurled
all because of this girl
the day is over now
my time is over now
this world wont miss me much
and i wont miss your touch
the day i always want
is the day that never comes

Randomness

It has been a while since i have posted and lots of things have happened recently. The research is going slightly better, took my first midterm of the semester (should be a solid b or a performance) but still generally unhappy. Did get to take out the xterra to pillsbury and did some sick donuts in water and had that thing spinning like crazy-makes me want a K5 Blazer so bad right now. Might have to invest in one sometime soon- like next year after i graduate. Get an 87 K5, stick a new 327 crate motor lift it 3 in throw some 33"s on it and some custom bumpers and a slick all black or gunmetal grey paint job with a lime green or chevy orange stripe. should be pretty awesome. not to mention anti fuel economy/global warming which should piss off the current government since it is a clunker by their standards. and to think i could run classic tags on it in a couple of years.
i feel like a free electron floating in space only to get trapped by some positively charged element yet desiring to be photoelectrically annihilated in a spiral of chaos. which reminds me of my license plate that i think i want..87chaos and if i cant get that it will be chaos87.
i dont feel like doing much at all. should be ordering a new computer soon since my work laptop is basially died on me. i can literally here the HD spinning-haha.